In the beginning there was you. You were born into an unknown world. You had no knowledge of what it would be like. Everything was a new discovery. Your pure childlike innocence was unscathed. You loved to laugh and to play. You were carefree. Until one day, even though you were too little to understand exactly what the word was, as you grew older you began to know it as pain. Pain was known to show itself in many ways to you. Feeling the searing sting of it when falling on the concrete. Or experiencing the strange ache you felt in your heart from the loss of a family member.
In these moments of pain, you find yourself with these things called emotions which are sometimes so overwhelming on the inside of you that tears begin naturally flowing out and streaming down your face. You identify your tears with pain. Hurts and wounds have inflicted your heart. As you begin to grow older, you discover that not everyone likes you or is for you.
You can’t show your true self in order to be acceptable. Because everyone said you have to be a certain way you thought it must be so. So, you tried with all your might to be a certain way to please them. You masked your heart to hide who you really were so that you could be in their good opinion. Little did you know that you allowed a little bit of yourself to be lost.
Then as the days went on, you began to be someone else in order to make them happy and yet, a little bit of sadness began to creep into your soul.
Ever since you were little, you always had an open heart toward others. You discovered along the way that you had a heart that was soft toward people, filled with generosity and a tenderness in caring about them. A heart that didn’t make judgements or criticisms but always saw the treasure and value in others. You had a heart that loved to reach out and be a friend to someone even when they were having a hard time.
You continued to respond that way as you grew up until someone rejected you and took advantage of your good heart and threw away your friendship when they decided that it was no longer needed. You then allow your heart to be cloaked with a callousness from rejection and letting the hurtful words that were spoken make you feel unimportant, devalued and unwanted. In that moment, you chose to let no one get close to you.
You began to remember the one who created you in the first place. The one you learned about in Sunday School. Surely, you could find acceptance in Him. You attended church on a regular basis but, in the midst of it you were reminded of the mistakes that you made in the past and in the present. Your future did not look promising. You thought if I had messed up so much how could my life get any better or even be whole again? Yet, you chose to pretend that you had it all together. You lived in fear that people would know that you were not perfect and were struggling to live up to that standard. You felt that if they found out that they would scold you for not being perfect. For fear of being found out and shunned by those you hoped would accept you, you stopped going to church. You concluded that you were not enough and that God was mad at you. You believed that when He made you, you were nothing but a mistake. You were doomed to failure.
You have now imprisoned yourself in a world of numbness and unworthiness believing that you are deficient. You allow yourself to become depressed to point of wondering why you are even on the planet. Suicidal thoughts enter your mind. Fear torments your soul on a constant basis smothering every bit of life within you. You have walled your true self in and walled everything and everyone else out including God. And yet, these walls that have been built around your heart have become your security. You have become imprisoned and feel there is no way out. You are not aware that you have lost your true identity. You have lost who you really are.
Is this the end of the story of your life? No, it is not the end of your story.
Because you are still breathing, there is more to your life than one of misery and imprisonment. You see before you were ever born there was someone who wrote a book all about you. Someone who created you to be unique and valuable. Every little detail about you is so intricate and extraordinary. You have been made for a purpose. You have been destined for greatness. This someone never meant for you to walk on your journey of life alone. He wrote about how you would be a person who would change your world around you with the joy that overflows from your heart. His name is Jesus. He died for you so that you might live and be made whole.
Psalms 34:18 says, The Lord is close to those whose hearts have been broken. He saves those whose spirits have been crushed.
But, there is another person who has set out to destroy who you were created to be. He purposefully sets up circumstances to try to poison your life and destroy you from the inside out. He is out to steal your destiny, so he will make every attempt to keep you from knowing who you really are. His name is Satan.
Jesus said in John 10:10 A thief has only one thing in mind—he wants to steal, slaughter, and destroy. But I have come to give you everything in abundance, more than you expect—life in its fullness until you overflow!
In your life maybe you have been experiencing circumstances that are like the ones I have described. If you are or have been, I want to tell you that you are not alone. From the beginning of time there has been a battle over your destiny. But the Bible says, there is a friend that sticks closer than a brother. His name is Jesus and He wants to tell you who you really are. He wants to help you tear down the walls that have imprisoned you for so long. He wants you to be free to be who He created you to be.
1 Thessalonians 5:23-27 says, May God himself, the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you holy and whole, put you together—spirit, soul, and body—and keep you fit for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. The One who called you is completely dependable. If he said it, he’ll do it!
Hebrews 4:15-16 says, For Jesus is not some high priest who has no sympathy for our weaknesses and flaws. He has already been tested in every way that we are tested; but He emerged victorious, without failing God. So let us step boldly to the throne of grace, where we can find mercy and grace to help when we need it most.
Jesus wants to walk you through every pain and circumstance that you have faced, are facing or will face. As you go to Him, let Him show you who you are really are. The Bible is full of what He thinks and says about you. My prayer for you today is that you will open your heart up to the one who created you and allow Him to make you whole once again. Let Him show you who you really are.